Odd jealousy

Wife has no problem getting to know other people.  I don’t have that ability.  I generally don’t know how to talk to girls, or to anyone for that matter.  Her abilities in this manner are a huge source of jealousy for me.  I’m not jealous of her being with other people, I am jealous of the fact that there are other people in her life that she can do things with.  I’m jealous for the reason that I don’t have what she has.  I love her very much, I know she loves me and isn’t going to stop.  I still feel jealous because there aren’t others in my life.  I don’t have any friends here, nor do I have anything more than friends.  The only other thing close to that is a couple we play with occasionally, but that’s not the same.  I know it’s completely irrational and I can’t help myself from feeling this way.  I don’t know what I can do, or if there’s anything that can be done.

Husband

So, this is the Husband of the polyamorous couple. I don’t really know what to write about. My wife and I are very open with each other and neither one of us had to convince the other to open our marriage. It just kind of came up one day and we thought we would give it a shot. Unlike the wife, I’m not actively searching for another emotional relationship. I guess I lean a little more toward the swinger side of things while she leans more toward the poly side. While I’m not necessarily searching for another emotional relationship, I’m not avoiding it either. If I happen to like another person, I will explore it. At this point though, I just want physical, fuck buddy, type relationships. But with my shyness, social ineptitude, and general dislike of people, it can be hard to find others to do anything with. The wife is really the star of this show, I’m kind of like the extra in the background.

-Husband